My Life right now...is Awful. I hope it gets better.

OK, so Saturday was the worst day ever. My Grandma  wanted us to clean Runa's room so Drew could sleep in there. And that set my Mom off, you do not want to set my Mom off. You set my Mom off you have a 30% chance of living. Well after about thirty minutes of screaming (from just Mom), my Dad told us to get started on homework (so we didn't have to go to Grandma's as fast). We never do homework on Saturday! After we did homework Dad told us that Grandpa was throwing all of runa's stuff in a bag. So we had to come and pick it up when he was done. Well I wasn't really mad at Grandma for wanting us to clean. I was just glad Drew was going to church. Sunday was even worse. My great Grandma had to go to the hospital, so Grandma couldn't take us to church. Well  I was ok with that, then she said Drew could take us. I was very pleased to hear her say that. My Dad was hesitant, but then told us Drew could take us. I was so happy because I got to see my awesome Teacher. She let's me talk to her and won't judge me if I made a mistake. She's kinda like a second Mom. Well Church was very nice. I got to lend my Teacher a book called White Fang. And had really good classes. But what was waiting for us at home was horrible. My Mom had screamed and cussed at my Dad. Making me feel horrible. And I'm scared for Runa because she's turning into a little version of my Mom. My Mom is mad at me and my Dad for existing. And now that Grandma's not around that much I'm alone. I can't talk to my Dad because he already has enough on his plate. And every time I tell runa my secrets, when she's mad at me she screams them to someone else. So I can't talk to anyone. It's making feel so sick. Yesterday I felt nauseous from Mom yelling at me. I think this stress is killing me. I just wish Runa is going to turn out ok. Every time Mom and Dad fight I get her out of there. I just don't want her to do the things I did when I was upset. I want to shield her from all the bad, so she can be happy. Last night she had a nightmare, so I let her sleep in my bed with me. I haven't slept for weeks. Luckily I don't look that bad. But I'm having nightmares that keep me awake. Like Mom is trying to kill me, or my Teacher hating me, or even just being in a dark room alone. I think I'm going to start asking for Gods help. Maybe he can give me a better life. Or just help me get through this year alive. Well that's it, pretty bad huh. I hope I have a better week (with sleep). And maybe even some reading. :)   

Starting out to be a Good Day! :)

Today is starting out to be and Awesome Day! Yesterday we went to the bookstore and Toy store.

At the bookstore I bought (with my own money) three books. The Phantom of the Opera, Impulse, and Interview with a vampire. I just started reading Interview with a Vampire. Oh yeah! On New Years eve my cousins family took me Bowling. It was cool. I only got one strike though. Ha Ha. I really, really want to go Dirt Bike Riding so badly. The ground is still wet (but slowly drying) . Right now Mom's making Chocolate chip Pancakes. Yum! I really want to finish 33 books before the end of the year. I know I can do it though, just can't give up. My Dad is supposed to work on tearing down house 4. I really hope he doesn't get hurt. I have to keep up on my blog so that I don't forget things that happen.

Well hope today will stay a good day! :3

I love my Life....most of the time!

Today was sunny! but still cold. I tried to do things my Dad can do. Like walking on his hands. Still working on it, but I know I'll get better! I'm also trying to learn how to dance. So I picked stuff like hip-hop and break dancing. Word to the wise DON'T break dance unless you have awesome upper body strength. My day started OK . I used my little sister as a dummy for dancing. I read what was on the computer, and she tried to do it. Oh well we'll get it at some point, ha ha. Well good night.  

Today it was raining. So I've been inside all day. Its really cold outside. I did some exercising like sit ups, and bridges. I did homework, then read my Vampire knight manga for a little bit. I really don't like rain in winter. I haven't been able to ride my dirt bike in awhile because the ground is wet. So I just stay inside. It REALLY sucks. I'm eating mint chocolate chip ice-cream. I know ice-cream in winter. Ha-ha. The day before Thanksgiving we went to grandmas and put up the tree. My little sisters friend came over, so she got to help to! We had a very quiet thanksgiving.  My cousins family invited us over to there house for thanksgiving. My grandma says that really helped her get through the week. I started playing songs from my favorite TV shows on my keyboard. Some are hard so I can't do those. I play by ear sometimes. But most of the time I read the notes. I have my favorite cherry necklace on, its really pretty. Yesterday I asked my Dad to tell me something he thought I couldn't do. So he says do fifty sit-ups in one sitting. So I Did It!! Ha take that Dad. And because I do them a lot, I don't hurt today.Well that's it. See Ya tomorrow!